Wednesday, December 28, 2011
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Dear Tabitha, Bodybuilding.com would like to feature you....WHAT?!?!?
Yes that was an email I received from bodybuilding.com this year along with some paperwork I had to fill out and submit to be considered for their Over 40 (gulp!) Transformation of the Week. So I filled it out and submitted it and that was that. For those of you not in the know, bodybuilding.com is quite the online community for the fitness elite and the fitness elite wanna-be's (that's me). I was simply thrilled just to receive the email.
Fast forward to November.....and TA-DA! http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/body-transformation-tabitha-trained-for-the-stage.html#.TsW-Y_XWaOw.facebook
Not going to lie, THIS was awesome! **insert happy dancing here**
I posted it on facebook and shared with others. Apparently not everyone shares my excitement. I submit the following comment in regards to my feature:
"It is NOT what is on our outside that pleases God, but what is on the inside. a WEIGHTLIFTERS for God program may better suit you."
Hmmm...where does one begin? This was not a random stranger, this was indeed someone I know very well. I chose to ignore the post because I knew the poster was trying to elicit a response and I wasn't going to play. But it is there, in my mind. If I was a better person anytime this is brought to my mind I would perhaps pray for this person. I generally just refile it, in the junk drawer of my mind.
But I saw something today that made me think of it again:
Some of us have it. Some of us don't.
Fast forward to November.....and TA-DA! http://www.bodybuilding.com/fun/body-transformation-tabitha-trained-for-the-stage.html#.TsW-Y_XWaOw.facebook
Not going to lie, THIS was awesome! **insert happy dancing here**
I posted it on facebook and shared with others. Apparently not everyone shares my excitement. I submit the following comment in regards to my feature:
"It is NOT what is on our outside that pleases God, but what is on the inside. a WEIGHTLIFTERS for God program may better suit you."
Hmmm...where does one begin? This was not a random stranger, this was indeed someone I know very well. I chose to ignore the post because I knew the poster was trying to elicit a response and I wasn't going to play. But it is there, in my mind. If I was a better person anytime this is brought to my mind I would perhaps pray for this person. I generally just refile it, in the junk drawer of my mind.
But I saw something today that made me think of it again:
Some of us have it. Some of us don't.
Auld Lang Syne.....
Like an old friend this blog is still here. Holding memories and secrets, reminding me of things accomplished and things to come. One of my New Years goals will be to return to blogging. As I moved from my goals of 2011 into just doing life there seemed to be less to blog about, everything so mundane. Who wants to read that? Thus, I have come to realize this blog isn't for 'them'. It is for me. So I will make it a priority; no deadlines, no must do's, just an old friend, here when needed. I enjoy this.
2011 was an incredible year for me and I am looking forward to 2012 with New Ambitions and Great Expectations. Maybe I should change the name to that....
With the New year comes talk of resolutions. I don't make resolutions anymore. Why should I ? I never kept them when I did make them. I make goals now. And along with my goals I make plans. You know the saying: A goal without a plan is simply a wish. In the past 5 years I have learned to distinguish between the two and I like goals much better!
So you are welcome to come along with me on this journey...it won't always be exciting, but then again the calm, still moments are some of my most favorite. Please remember, although something in this blog may touch you or motivate you, inspire you or even annoy you , I do this for me.
So let's see what 2012 brings us. What we can learn. How we can grow. What we can move and what we can be moved by....life is continuous and so should our pursuit of it be.
2011 was an incredible year for me and I am looking forward to 2012 with New Ambitions and Great Expectations. Maybe I should change the name to that....
With the New year comes talk of resolutions. I don't make resolutions anymore. Why should I ? I never kept them when I did make them. I make goals now. And along with my goals I make plans. You know the saying: A goal without a plan is simply a wish. In the past 5 years I have learned to distinguish between the two and I like goals much better!
So you are welcome to come along with me on this journey...it won't always be exciting, but then again the calm, still moments are some of my most favorite. Please remember, although something in this blog may touch you or motivate you, inspire you or even annoy you , I do this for me.
So let's see what 2012 brings us. What we can learn. How we can grow. What we can move and what we can be moved by....life is continuous and so should our pursuit of it be.
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Little things....
Nearly 3 months post competition and my body is more like it should be. We call this the maintenance phase. It means I have put about 10-15 pounds back on. So I went to purchase a pair of shorts yesterday and found the ones I wanted, but they were out of size 6. I debated with myself for a solid 15 minutes before purchasing the size 4 over the size 8 and telling myself, you can return them tomorrow.
Took them home, decided to try them on and 'get it over with' and then...they fit. Not going to lie, I was happy dancing. Totally unexpected!! Totally shallow!! Totally thrilled.
Took them home, decided to try them on and 'get it over with' and then...they fit. Not going to lie, I was happy dancing. Totally unexpected!! Totally shallow!! Totally thrilled.
Saturday, July 23, 2011
Reflections....
Yesterday Taylor and I visited Augustana College. We met with the admissions counselor, the volleyball coach, and toured the campus. This was our second college visit and I am really enjoying the time spent with her and watching her go through this decision process.
I was reflecting upon how different her life experiences have been compared with mine at the same age and how proud I am of her and all of her accomplishments.On the ride home she told me that the admissions counselor asked her about her support system and she told him that it was me that influenced her and inspired her. Can I just say, what an incredible honor?!?!?
Then it reminded me of an essay I had to write last year when I was applying for a scholarship. It was a scholarship offered through the IHSA (Illinois Head Start Association) and the requirements were that you had to be a Head Start employee, parent, or former student and a current full time student. Judges would select a winner, one winner in the state of Illinois, from the essays received from qualified recipients. Another one of those 'what have I got to lose' moments in my life. Here is the essay I submitted and that was chosen making me the winner of the Mary Alice Buchanan Scholarship Award.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend! Own it in style!!
I was reflecting upon how different her life experiences have been compared with mine at the same age and how proud I am of her and all of her accomplishments.On the ride home she told me that the admissions counselor asked her about her support system and she told him that it was me that influenced her and inspired her. Can I just say, what an incredible honor?!?!?
Then it reminded me of an essay I had to write last year when I was applying for a scholarship. It was a scholarship offered through the IHSA (Illinois Head Start Association) and the requirements were that you had to be a Head Start employee, parent, or former student and a current full time student. Judges would select a winner, one winner in the state of Illinois, from the essays received from qualified recipients. Another one of those 'what have I got to lose' moments in my life. Here is the essay I submitted and that was chosen making me the winner of the Mary Alice Buchanan Scholarship Award.
As I sit down to write this essay, I am struck by how difficult it is to write about myself. I should be telling everyone my story, sharing with the world, not just my failures, but my successes. It has been a long road from there to here and I have accomplished much.
Growing up in Michigan, I was the oldest child of an alcoholic father and co-dependent mother. I went to Head Start as a child. We lived in public housing, received food stamps, benefitted from a medical card and to this day I can’t stand to see a block of cheese, dried milk, or tuna casserole. I was the peacemaker among my siblings, the responsible one in my family, the good student in school; your typical oldest child. But certain things were just a given. I would hopefully graduate from high school, get a job, and move out when I was 18. So I did.
I have lived on my own since I was 18 years old and worked since I was 16. When I was 22 I started working at a sales company and worked for that company for 10 years. This was my first long term job, the beginning of my understanding of what a career could be. The company closed after 10 years and I was unemployed for the first time ever. As I stood in the unemployment office, I saw a sign that would, again, change my world. It was a program for dislocated workers and I qualified. Essentially, they told me I could go to school for two years and they would pay for it. I chose to get my Associates in Child Development and returned to school full-time. At this time I was married with 3 children. Soon after starting school I began working full time in a day care. At the age of 36, I graduated with my AAS in Child Development, a 3.8 GPA, and High Honors. I am the first child in my family to graduate from college.
I knew, from doing my observations for school, that I wanted to come and teach at Head Start and ‘pay it forward’ as they say. I had been blessed by this program that had given me the means to return to school and I wanted to pass that on to others.
Soon after starting at Head Start as an Assistant Teacher I decided to return to school and complete my Bachelor’s Degree. I have been attending Kendall College full time for two years now. I am completing my Bachelors in Early Childhood Education and already thinking about what I might pursue my Masters in.
It has been demanding of my time and my energy but every time I look into the eyes of my 3 daughters I know I am doing the right thing for all of us. And even if I am not comfortable talking about my accomplishments with others, I am proud of myself and where I have been and what I have become.
Enjoy the rest of your weekend! Own it in style!!
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Back in the saddle....
So I took 2 months off after the competition, went to California and then Florida, spent some amazing time with Mike and my mom, and am currently enjoying the remainder of my summer vacation with the girls. Life is good.
Today, July 7, 2011, I begin my new meal plan and my new journey. I intend to compete again next Summer and therefore will spend the next 9 months building up my muscle, staying lean, and eating well! I will keep track of my journey here, along with other ramblings and glimpses into my world.
Two days ago a young woman named Casey Anthony was found not guilty of killing her 2 year old daughter Caylee. While this doesn't pertain to me personally, as a mother, teacher, and member of the community as a whole it sickens me. But then I pause to think and realize that regardless of what a jury may determine, not convicted does not equal innocence and whomever is guilty of this horrible crime will undoubtedly suffer. No person can commit such a crime without being haunted for the rest of whatever their life may be. And it strikes me that this situation is like so many others in our daily lives: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Those are the things I desire in my life; serenity, courage, and wisdom.
On a brighter note, I was recently chosen to be a member of the Big Ten Fan Council. As an avid, passionate, die hard, some may say crazy, college football fan this is so EXCITING for me. I will be attending the Kickoff Luncheon on July 29th in Chicago where I will meet all of the media people from the Big Ten Network, and all of the Head Coaches from the conference and a select group of players. How did I stumble upon this opportunity? I saw a posting from the Big Ten Network saying they were accepting applications. I thought, "why not???" But then I heard that voice in my head saying...why? what will you say? you don't know enough about football. you will feel uncomfortable. you will be a nervous wreck. don't be silly. AH-HA moment....nothing ventured, nothing gained. I filled out the application and submitted it. I had NOTHING to lose. And then I was chosen. :) Lesson here: Stop living in your comfort zone, challenge yourself to step outside of it. You are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for!
Feels good to be back.....
Today, July 7, 2011, I begin my new meal plan and my new journey. I intend to compete again next Summer and therefore will spend the next 9 months building up my muscle, staying lean, and eating well! I will keep track of my journey here, along with other ramblings and glimpses into my world.
Two days ago a young woman named Casey Anthony was found not guilty of killing her 2 year old daughter Caylee. While this doesn't pertain to me personally, as a mother, teacher, and member of the community as a whole it sickens me. But then I pause to think and realize that regardless of what a jury may determine, not convicted does not equal innocence and whomever is guilty of this horrible crime will undoubtedly suffer. No person can commit such a crime without being haunted for the rest of whatever their life may be. And it strikes me that this situation is like so many others in our daily lives: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Those are the things I desire in my life; serenity, courage, and wisdom.
On a brighter note, I was recently chosen to be a member of the Big Ten Fan Council. As an avid, passionate, die hard, some may say crazy, college football fan this is so EXCITING for me. I will be attending the Kickoff Luncheon on July 29th in Chicago where I will meet all of the media people from the Big Ten Network, and all of the Head Coaches from the conference and a select group of players. How did I stumble upon this opportunity? I saw a posting from the Big Ten Network saying they were accepting applications. I thought, "why not???" But then I heard that voice in my head saying...why? what will you say? you don't know enough about football. you will feel uncomfortable. you will be a nervous wreck. don't be silly. AH-HA moment....nothing ventured, nothing gained. I filled out the application and submitted it. I had NOTHING to lose. And then I was chosen. :) Lesson here: Stop living in your comfort zone, challenge yourself to step outside of it. You are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for!
Feels good to be back.....
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